Norm came home a little early today, so I am using the time to get a quick post in before the nighttime routine of dinner/bath/dora/bed begins after which I turn into a complete blob on the couch for an hour before I drag myself to bed still wearing the pajamas I went to bed in the night before.
Can I quit the blog now? I realize now that it's never good to make any kind of committment when your husband is on vacation. Now that he is back to work, and I am back to WORK, I didn't even have time to think let alone think about what to write or how to write or how to even form words into sentences. It's amazing how taking care of a 1 year old and 2 year old by yourself all day completely sucks the individuality out of you. I am nothing else but a mom when I am with them - all my energy, all my thoughts, all my time goes into to taking care of them. I guess some people can do both, but I find that I am much happier being a mom when I stop trying to be anything else.
That probably sounds totally pathetic to some people. There are moms who are noble prize winners, CEOs and very successful at non-mom things. I guess I see my current state of complete and utter mom-ness as a temporary thing. As they get older and begin school they will at the very least occupy less of my time, and so I will have more time to think, right? Maybe I just have to force myself back into the working world to realize you can be successful, or at least somewhat successful, at both. I hate quoting celebrities, but I heard Sara Jessica Parker say about being a working mom that sometimes she feels like a hero at home and work and some days she fails at everything. Still not sure what today will be for me.
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