Forever Friends

Today I am on the downward part of an emotional roller coaster. I just talked to one of my best friends and found out that she is weeks away from leaving San Francisco and moving to Austin. I barely see Lorry any more. Now that we are both moms and live over an hour apart, there is never enough time. And never the right time for both of us.

But she's not the type of friend I need to see all of the time or speak to every day. She is a forever friend. And there is plenty of time catch up later.

But knowing that she will be leaving the state brought an emptiness to my heart. There was one less person in the state that loved me. One less person that I could call in the same time zone. One less reason to visit the City I love to see the friend that I love.

I have never made friends easily. I am cautious and take my time. Except when the friendship is with a forever friend like Lorry. Its instantaneous. Its easy. Its fun. And it stands the test of time. To me, its similar to finding a soul mate. Lorry is someone I was meant to be friends with.

Maybe its part of the reason I am so lonely in Morgan Hill. I haven't met a forever friend here. Its possible I met her at the park one afternoon but neither of us had time to open up because one of our kids ran in the opposite direction. I bet we stood in line behind each other at the supermarket and didn't even notice we were buying the same items for dinner that night. I am sure she accidentally took my drink from the barrista at Starbucks while I was yelling at Josie to stop jumping on the chaise lounge.

I realize now that unless my forever friend has children that are the same ages as mine, our friendship will probably never even get passed a friendly hello. And having children 360 days apart really decreased my chances of finding a viable forever friend within a 10 mile radius.

But I keep looking. I keep smiling at young moms with children that look suspiciously close in age. And until I meet a new forever friend, I rely on my old ones. Through calls, through emails and through just knowing they are out there. Even if they are a few states away.